it’s too late — or is it too early?– for me to be up like this. I’m too tired too properly function and accomplish anything, but I’m too awake and anxious to fall back asleep. and no matter my energy level, I’m too depressed to be able to focus on anything other than my inadaquecies and self-hatred.
maybe I’ll go soak and read a kid’s book or watch a light movie. whatever I do, lying in bed awake for several more hours is condusive to neither rest nor productivity.