WOW. so I managed to really fuck up being an adult. I made a great discovery last night when I was dishing out my next two weeks of pills into each day’s three packet-things. I was putting my vitamin C’s in my morning spots, when I noticed one said “200” on it. I looked further, and I noticed a wide variety of different pills in the large bottle, such as “APO | QUE 200” and “905“. if you clicked the links, you know where I fucked up. if not, here it is:
I WAS TAKING 200MG OF SEROQUEL EVERY MORNING instead of my vitamin C. O_O
for those of y’all who don’t know, Seroquel is an antipsychotic that is famous for the “Seroquel Zombie” side effect. it also causes extreme drowsiness, feeling generally “spacey” or “out of it”, flu-like symptoms, GI issues, weight gain, et cetera, et cetera.
and the best part of all this — I have no clue for how long I’ve been taking 200mg of Seroquel every morning on an empty stomach. XD
I need to call both my psychiatrist and my therapist and tell them about this little, uh, hiccup. but I’m not sure how to do that. I’ll text my therapist tomorrow (not sure if 9pm is too late for her on a work night) and ask when is a good time for a few minutes to talk. I guess I just leave a message for my psychiatrist’s nurse, who I don’t know at all.
I suppose maybe this is why I was so tired last week when I was not taking any of my morning medication because I am irresponsible and moronic. maybe that’s why I then started becoming very manic. maybe that’s why I just feel like I’m starting to spiral down in the can’t-focus-look-a-squirrel-omg-I-want-to-cry-because-life-is-horrible route. just ugh.