“ The virtue in most request is conformity. ”― Emerson
“ People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances with our own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive. ”― Joseph Campbell
Where do you find the most meaning in life and feel the most fully alive? Is there something you’d love to do but don’t because the world thinks it’s silly or worthless or wrong? Is there anything you do that you consider virtuous yet the world looks down on? How do you handle the tension?
I rarely hesitate to do or participate in something that “the world” attempts to belittle. for example, I’m 32-years-old and still wear goth outfits or colour-dyed high pigtails. the general public sometimes makes fun of me for this — but I rarely give a flying fuck. my desks as every job are adorned this toys and figurines — because they make me happy, and because screw others’ negative opinions.
however, there are few things that make me feel truly Alive. kayaking down a river refreshens me like nothing else. being elevated high into the clouds and looking down below is invigorating. I like the rush of problem solving, conflicting resolution, and otherwise putting out fires at large events or in chaotic atmospheres.
I need to do these things more. I need to learn to do them alone, if I must. no one up here really does anything fun. grand Adventures seems to be reserved for one class or motif of people, not the general populace. as such, my only knowing general folk, no one does shit.
I’m trying to get a group together for an Escape Room. only one of the three pairs of individuals invited have actually responded. I plan to nudge them via another medium on Monday, just to check in. but still, it should not be this hard to get people together to have some fun.
however, instead of bitching about Minnesotans, I need to learn to enjoy things on my own, without company. it’s just hard to be a leader of a group when no one is following you.