been exactly a month since that last post. not on purpose. just how it works sometimes.
things are still Noisy in my Mind.
the Voices are coming back; although they are overall innocent. they don’t give directions so much as they just talk amongst themselves. chatty cathys are all they really are; basically harmless.
it’s the Noise that’s the problem. and yes, that’s different. Voices that give instructions are part of the Noise. my own self-hatred and repetitive berating, my high pitch sound that whines in my head, the static that fuzzes over my attempts to escape — that’s all part of the Noise. sometimes music can contribute to the Noise.
I can’t hardly handle it. I’m supposed to take medication when it gets too bad. but how often will I admit that? and many times, it gets really Noisy while I’m at work. so yeah, let’s see about taking one of my klonopins or such then…
in other news, I am physically ill. I seem to have a generic winter cold. the snow up here has been quite beautiful, however. and we may be going to celebrate Christmas with the same family that offered us a Thanksgiving last year. truly kind and welcoming people they are.
Christmas cards are going to be very late this year, lol. I’ll make a post with more details about all that later tonight or tomorrow. I’ll be collecting addresses there too. but in the meantime, we’re: Brian, James, and Zero; 200 Nathan Ln N, Apt 111; Plymouth, MN 55441-6466 😉
that’s all for now. maybe something more informative later…..