“31 Journaling Prompts for Building Greater Self-Reliance”

y’all know me.  I’m always trying to do a proper series of sorts on here.  so here’s another go at it.  below is the intro as written by its creator — so all credit on this post goes to him.  stay tuned to read my thoughts……

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Week-End Wrap-Up: Week 36

well, I had a second UTI in three weeks.  and this one is so bad it moved up into my kidneys.  the nurse practitioner seemed impressed of sorts when she reviewed my stats:

Component Your Value Standard Range
UA PH OP 5.0   5.0, 5.5, 6.0, 6.5, 7.0, 7.5, 8.0
UA SPECIFIC GRAVITY OP 1.020   1.015, 1.020, 1.025
UA PROTEIN OP >=300 mg/dL Negative mg/dL
UA GLUCOSE OP 100 mg/dL Negative mg/dL
UA KETONES OP Trace mg/dL Negative mg/dL
UA BILIRUBIN OP Small   Negative
UA BLOOD OP Moderate   Negative, Trace
UA LEUKOCYTE ESTERASE OP Large   Negative, Trace
UA NITRITE OP Positive   Negative

the whole >=300 protein bit really made her nervous, lol.  all that the above says is “OMG YES, THIS IS A BAD UTI”.  XD  so there’s that going on.

oh!  she did give me a recommendation to a urologist to finally get this mess checked out and see what’s wrong with me.  that’s good news.


Brian’s trying to get a table-top group going again.  he’s got his eyes on a wrestling RPG.  Tiger can’t commit right now; Daminelle is not interested in the wrestling one.  so we may be having to bring on new people, or think of something else.  Brian, Dam, and I are to talk tonight about what all our options are.  I’m willing to DM a story-heavy campaign, not so much a hack’n’slash one.  so we’ll see.


really, that UTI has been the bulk of my week.  maybe next time I’ll have more interesting things to share….

Annual Review of August 2016-2017

so I had this all written up about a week ago.  I’ve asked Brian a few times to help me review it and ensure I was holding an objective and realistic perspective on things.  he never did, so I’m just shooting it out as-is.  I’ll tweak it and flesh it out later.  but here’s a start.

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creating my first topic series

so with my getting a regular writing schedule, I’m hoping to have some pretty constant topics in the long-run.  like, “Wednesday’s Writing Prompt” or “Thoughts for Thursdays”, and other alliterative things.  but for now, I think I’ll start with “Week-End Wrap-Up”, to be written/posted on either Saturday or Sunday.

I can’t decide the exact topic, however.  at first, I was thinking that I would do a basic recap of my week.  and if a person was not interested in my day-to-day life, they could simply just skip reading it.  (but I’ll be honest, there’s sometimes some really interesting things that happen to me, even on “normal” days.)

then I thought that maybe my “wrap-ups” should be that of projects.  it might help to encourage me to complete tasks and projects.  but then I considered that I don’t really complete one project a week.  so I’m not sure I’m going to go with that one.

do you have any ideas?  and it can be for any day, not just “Week-End Wrap-Up”.  I just figured that would be the easiest.

Winter Is (finally) Here

so I’m finally doing it.  I’m finally getting around to watching Game of Thrones.  lawlz.  yeah, until two nights ago, I had not seen more than a mere two minutes of the show.  though not  for disinterest.  rather, it’s because I was so interested and knew I would like it.  see, I wanted to read the books first — like all good little book-lovers and librarians do.  but there are only five million other books that I have to read, and two million that I’m currently in the middle of (fo’ realz, there are 12 books on my “currently reading” GoodReads shelf).

anyway.  we’re three episodes in, and of course I love it.  so I’m going to be chronicling my watching the show and catching up with everyone.  there’s six or so season, so the first few months of my writing should be fine RE spoilers.  for example, I already “know” spoilers that happen to characters I haven’t even met yet — six years, it’s fair game, lol.  I’ve created a new tag to log all these updates in.

if you’re a GoT fan, you may find amusement as I fawn of characters I love, shit over characters I dislike, and guess as to what may happen next.

also, if there’s any kind of “talley” you’d want (ex: everytime a character references that winter is inbound), let me know and I’l make a game out of it.  🙂

and lastly, if you are a fan, feel free to share your fandom with me.  (and that goes for ANY fandoms we have in common!)  what are some of your fav sites, resources, fanart, and fanfics?  who’s your favourite character, and why?  did you make an Insert Char?; if so, tell me about him.

I miss falling in with a fandom.  so I’m really looking forward to doing it again.

another year

I will have been alive for 30 years as of tomorrow.  the current average life expectancy for both males and females is about 78 years.  I like to be liberal and take off a few years due to my general stupidity and possibly brain damage via concussions, lol.  but even so, even if we say 70 years, I’m more than halfway through my life.  this is comforting in the fact that this shit is probably at least half over.

but this is depressing, as I’m at halfway through and still have no clue what the hell I’m doing.  sure, no one ever really “gets” Life or masters it.  but I don’t rightly care.  I’m not comparing myself to them; I’m comparing myself to me.  and I’m no better now than I was few years ago; in fact, I think I’m worse than I was ten years ago.  at least during my college years I was still in school and learning; I had a semblance of a purpose.

but now, I don’t even had a sail or a rudder, much less a plan.

I want that to end.  I’ve been making very big, positive steps to get Better —   mentally/emotionally: I’m seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist; I’m going to group therapy; I’m taking my medication regularly.  physically: I’m working out regularly again; I’m on great meds for my pain and sleep; I’m drinking much less, and have cut out the harder drinks.  professionally: I’m doing mediocre at job hunting; I’m taking steps to getting my car and license back; I’ve doing well about getting back onto the SNAP program; I’m spending less money in general.  et cetera, et cetera.  hell, amid all this, I even got back on the Nerd Fitness forums (which often helped me a lot).

I’m just scared of the inevitable Down again.  it seems like my Downswings are always more stark than my Ups.  that leads to a general decline, which is not cool.

anyway, I want to see about stopping this.  I want to start having a better approach to life, a better view of what’s going on now and what’s to come.  this means making both short-term and long-term plans and goals.

most people do annual reviews during December and January.  my birthday is right at the end of summer; it’s not an arbitrary date for me, so I’ll adopt it for my transition period.  so in the next post or two, I’ll put up what I hope to be the start of my annual “Annual Review”.  ::crosses fingers hopefully::

but back to my birthday.  I don’t really know what Brian’s going to do.  he already gave me one gift — plastic goggles (for when I’m chopping onions, cleaning with bleach, or changing the cat litter).  he knows I like useful gifts, so yeah.  I’m pretty sure I know the other thing he’s getting me (no spoilers).  we talked about cooking a fancy dinner together, then dressing up and eating the dinner at the kitchen table — save money, instead of going out to eat.  I have a feeling that’s going to be a disaster.  maybe I’m being pessimistic because we had a tiff last night that wasn’t resolved, so I slept on the couch; of course, he awoke butt-hurted this morning because I never came to bed.  so we’re at odds right now.

I just feel so alone up here.  so I feel like I want to celebrate my birthday alone.  I want to spend a day or two being INCREDIBLY PRODUCTIVE, and just call that my gift to myself, The End.  but we’ll see what he decides tonight….