so a doctor finally sees it. I’ve only been saying it for how many years now? but finally, a specialist recognizes it – I have Borderline Personality Disorder.
it’s a breath of relief to be able to say that with more certainty, with a clinician’s loose opinion to back me up.
it doesn’t change who I am or how I function. but it does mean that we may attack the Noise in my head in a different manner.
my psychiatrist wants me to start DBT – Dialectical Behavior Therapy. basically training to rewire how your brain thinks, focusing strongly on things like mindfulness, interpersonal effectiveness, distress tolerance, and (what I really need help with) emotion regulation.
more details on this later, including what exactly Borderline is.