I signed up for a simple 5k walk/run. it’s in June. that gives me time to get back to a semblance of healthy, at least. I was telling a co-workers — who I really hope I can legit befriend — about some of the fun 5ks I’ve done over the years: zombies, foam, colours, fun jump/bouncy castles, etc. she then took it upon herself to find one she could walk for, and signed herself up. she also signed up her partner, who said he would go to whatever she chose. well, it wasn’t until after she’d paid the fees and whatnot that her man told her he would be running it, leaving her behind. so I volunteered to go with her. we could go at whatever pace she needed. she seemed to both appreciate the sentiment and see the value in my offer, because she accepted it happily.
so in the middle of June, I’m doing another 5k.
this one is just two laps around a pond in St. Paul. nothing spectacular. but it was only $30, and it’s a charity run/walk. so that works for me. just something to get me moving again.
I’ve missed my 5ks. I’ve missed being fit. I’ve missed the smaller numbers on my scale, my clothes fitting, not having to suck in my gut because it expands past my breasts. I’m tired of holding onto clothes because “maybe I’ll fit them again in a few months”, of constantly eating when I know I shouldn’t, of huffing and puffing while going up or down a set of stairs. I’m just done with it.
so I need to come up with my plan. it’s finally starting to warm. so I might can start running outside soon. I’m moderately looking forward to that (I usually hate running, because of my knees). I’ll probably go back to the very first workout routine that worked for me. I had the most success with it (some reasons for this were unrelated to the workout itself, granted), so why not try it again. if it works again, then I know it’s a keeper. if not, then I need to see what is the element or variable that’s fucking with my shit and preventing me from exercising.
I also need to look into my food plan. I’m thinking 1,600 kcals/day, minus Tuesdays and Fridays (usually date nights, wherein I eat
whatever Brian is eating more food than I should).
so that’s what I’ll work on tonight. my fitness plan. I may post up the deets when I’m finished. undecided.