so first, let’s understand a typical panic attack:
“a sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.” that’s the general definition. when people think of “panic attacks”, they see Monk freaking out. how cute, right?
but real panic attacks are more than just that.
and then there are the atypical panic attacks. the ones that happen in the mind and never manifest outside the body. I just had one. I was sitting here, trying to coordinate my route and plans at home. and inside my Mind, I lost my damn Shit. externally, no one would have seen anything; I seemed fine. I was in control of all my motors, and I wasn’t babbling some incoherent shit. but inside of my head, LIGHTS WERE GOING OFF THAT SET OFF ADDITIONAL ALARMS AND EVERYTHING WAS SHUTTING DOWN AND I CAN’T DO THIS!!
and then, after several minutes, it stopped. and now …. now that I am ready to write about it, I can’t. so there goes that fucking useful as shit entry…….